MERMAID - HER SOLITUDE & HER RISE

 

Once so Cheerful MERMAID now became LIFELESS.
A MERMAID who feared DARKNESS, now embraced DARKNESS.
She shut herself in the SHIP WRECKS & Built a wall with ROCKS that can't be broken from outside.
All she had was herself & the Memories she made in love.

She knew she was not strong anymore to take the pain that's drowning her heart in ocean of memories. 
Still she wanted to bear everything on her own.
She didn't want to step out into the ocean ever again as everything reminded her of the one who left her.

She choose to remain IN SOLITUDE WITH HERSELF.

The Ocean, The Moon, The Stars & Her friends in the Ocean who witnessed the story from the beginning were saddened by the way MERMAID was HEART BROKEN.
The OCEAN longed for her Presence
The MOON became GLOOMY as he couldn't SHINE on her
The STARS missed her BEAUTIFUL DANCE
And HER FRIENDS were WORRIED as MERMAID was afraid of DARKNESS & they never saw her HEART BROKEN.

Unbothered about the outside world,
MERMAID continued living as a LIFELESS DOLL. 
She lay awake staring into the Darkness wondering What went wrong.
As tears rolled from her eyes with the heaviness of memories, she cuddled herself to Sleep.
Suddenly NIGHTMARES would hit her out of blue & she would sit there in a corner with her head on her knees and cry her heart out.

All this while,
MERMAID KNEW HER HEART WAS BLEEDING SEVERELY.
The pain was unbearable as every inch of her SOUL was torn apart.
At times, She looked at the BRACELET and
Questioned GOD "Why he allowed such person into her life?"
At times,
She questioned herself, "If she really deserved the pain?"
She blamed herself, "For loving so unconditionally."
She pitied herself, "For allowing someone to treat her so unworthy."
She scolded herself, "For giving someone the right to break her heart."
She held herself responsible. "For letting someone play with her emotions and Toy her around."
She felt very sorry for her own self, "For letting her mind,soul,body and heart go through a breakdown because of someone."
Unable to bear the pain thats stabbing her Heart and Soul,
She fell on her knees, And Cried to God,
"SAVE ME FROM THE TRAUMA. I NEED YOUR HELP."

THEN HER INNER VOICE ASKED HER, 
"DARLING, WAS HE REALLY WORTHY OF YOU?
DO YOU DESERVE THE HEART WRENCHING TRAUMA FOR SOMEONE WHO LEFT YOU SUDDENLY?"
WAS HE MORE IMPORTANT THAN YOUR OWN SELF?

That Moment, MERMAID realized she loved him more than he deserved.
So he hurt her more than she deserved. 
Wiping her Tears, Like a determined soul she promised herself to rebuild her bruised and shattered life slowly.

Her friends in the Ocean, who were worried about her started knocking her door. She heard the knocks. But she was too weak to let anyone into her SOLITUDE. MERMAID knew she wanted her space to heal herself. She was Physically, Emotionally,Spiritually completely Damaged and broken.
"IN SOLITUDE SHE STARTED FIXING HERSELF, ONE BRUISE AT A TIME."
A small ray of light emerged from her soul and lit up the DARKNESS.
A SMILE ON HER FACE APPEARED AND IT BRIGHTENED HER HEART.

The friends who saw the light coming from the dark wall, were now relieved that MERMAID was alive. They too understood that she needed her space. But they wanted to be with her in her times of struggle. They loved MERMAID a lot.
All the friends decided to support her from a distance.
So they searched the Ocean and brought her favorite shells, fireflies, crystals and decorated the SHIP WRECK. 

Days passed and MERMAID HEALED HERSELF SLOWLY BUT VERY STRONGLY.
She finally decided that she can now live in the light again.
She was afraid the world outside might be Dark and thought that she might be alone.
As she made her decision,
SHE BROKE THE WALL WITH STRONG DETERMINATION.
When she stepped outside, it was a sight to BEHOLD.
HER SHIP WAS ALL DECKED UP WITH SHELLS, FIREFLIES & CRYSTALS.
HER FRIENDS WHO WERE WAITING THERE HUGGED HER & WELCOMED HER.
She then Understood, she was never alone all the while. She realized GOD ANSWERED HER PRAYERS THROUGH HER FRIENDS.
 
With happiness in her heart, She went up to the shore & sat on her rock. 
The MOON who finally saw her, started SHINING ON HER SO BRIGHTLY. Under that MOON LIGHT , THE MERMAID WAS GLOWING LIKE A PHOENIX WHO ROSE FROM HER ASHES.
The WAVES OF THE OCEAN SWAYED TO HER FAVORITE MUSIC.
The STARS TWINKLED & THE OCEAN WAS LIT UP AS DIAMOND CARPET.

MERMAID felt so peaceful Emotionally,Physically and Her heart,Mind,Soul & Body were swept with a sense of CONTENTMENT.
She can't erase the memories of her past, but she will no longer allow them to ruin her life.
She sat there in SOLITUDE and
She patted herself ," FOR NOT GIVING UP ON HERSELF IN ALL THOSE CHAOS"
She appreciated herself, "FOR BUILDING HERSELF FROM ALL THOSE SHATTERED PIECES."
She FELL IN LOVE WITH HERSELF ALL OVER AGAIN.

She looked up at the Sky & THANKED GOD FOR EVERYTHING.
And
SHE JUMPED INTO THE OCEAN & STARTED DANCING WITH HER FRIENDS TO THE MUSIC PLAYED BY THE WAVES UNDER THE MOONLIGHT.
HER LIFE STARTED AGAIN ....STRONGER & LOVELIER THAN EVER.

"BEHOLD HER, SINGLE IN THE FIELD,
YON SOLITARY HIGHLAND LASS."
                           - WILLIAM WORDSWORTH.

WHEN PRINCE LEFT HER HE THOUGHT
                        "THERE WILL BE A LOT OF FISH IN THE SEA."

BUT HEY
"SHE IS A MERMAID.
DAMN WONDERFUL CREATION WHO RULES THE WATER.
A MERMAID IS THE QUEEN OF OCEAN & RULER OF THE SEA". 


P.S:- THIS BLOG IS A DEDICATION TO MY VERY DEAR FRIENDS WHO UNDERSTOOD MY SOLITUDE AND YET NEVER LEFT ME ALONE IN DARKNESS.

Manjula, Himanshu, Shalini, Gomathi, Swetha,
Seshu, Harika, Pratyusha,Shilpa, Radhika.

You all became my strength in those weakest and darkest days and i can never say in words how much you guys mean to me. All i can say is I LOVE YOU guys.
 I LOVE MYSELF TOO. HAPPY VALENTINES DAY.