A PAIR OF GOLD STILETTOS TAUGHT ME THE BEST LESSON

             We live in a Society where we are judged for our Colour, Height, and Weight from the day we were born. Trying to fit in the so called social mould, we quite often force ourselves to be who we are not and subconsciously we regret it every minute.

             With a Height of 5feet 2inches, of course I am tagged THE SHORT GIRL (which I am). And all my friends are taller than me, obviously. Being the shortest of my gang, am treated as their perfect Arm rest and teased for not being able to reach few almirahs (still going on) but am loved and pampered the most.

                Irrespective of all this, I always choose to wear flat sandals. They are comfortable and I am free to walk without any fear. I never liked the concept of wearing high heels. I was afraid that I might stumble and fall flat on my face. And I can’t hurt my pride by making a fool out of myself in front of others. This was the story for 20years until 15days back.

                        While Browsing through Online shopping apps, I saw
A PAIR OF GOLD STILETTOS and was totally bewitched by them. It’s not my thing to wear heels, but I couldn’t let my eyes off them so I ordered them without a second thought.

They Say “DO NOT FOLLOW THE WHIMS OF YOUR HEART
                    OR WHATEVER YOUR EYES SEE”

                   The STILETTOS arrived and it was my turn to wear them. Finally I wore them for a party with my friends. Before that, for 2 days I made sure to apply Vaseline all over the inner sole of the heels so that it won’t be a harsh experience. Little did I know, the story was yet to begin. With that Gold glittery look, people loved MY STILETTOS. I was proud I made the right choice. The real problem was walking in them. I was afraid, but can’t let that fear show on my face. So with a bright smile on my face (which masked the hidden fear and pain) I took my first step. It was the most painful step I remember. All my 5 toes were struggling to fit in the narrow space of the Fingers strap. My ankle had to bear all the weight of my body (50kgs) on that heel (poor thing, sorry). To top the pain, the pointed heel was giving pressure on the foot. Whoa…what a hell of experience.
                Yet I had no choice but to walk in them. I still had the option to change into my flat sandals, but I chose not to. MATTER OF PRIDE. Well, it was a struggle to stand straight for the first half an hour. But slowly I got used to them and I started feeling comfortable in them. 2 hours later, I was totally in love with them that I danced wearing those STILETTOS and IGNORED THE PAIN and LITTLE SCARS. After coming home, once I removed them I felt so free and relieved But Looking at them and thinking about the whole experience I LEARNT a LESSON of my LIFETIME.

                   Isn’t this experience similar to our Relationships as well? There will be a lot of people around us. People who love us, adore us, hate us, ignore us and are totally indifferent to our existence itself. Out of all of them, we Fall for a Person Whom we like for N number of reasons which we ourselves are not aware of.                   Slowly we try to get close to them, make them notice our feelings, make them feel so special as if they are the Only Good ones existing in the whole Universe and find excuses to be with them. And the EFFORTS WE PUT TO BE A PART OF THEIR LIFE can literally make us feel pathetic sometimes. Of course they will notice us, they will see every little thing we are doing for them, they enjoy the LORDSHIP they get from us and They behave as if They Do not understand what is going on
(I wonder if they laugh on our stupidity when they think of us).
                Irrespective of their Cold Behaviour towards us, The I DO NOT CARE ABOUT YOU attitude they throw on our face we still chose not leave them. We still keep that blinking little hope in the corner of our heart alive with a false hope  that may be one day they will realize our true love and will come to us. We keep on waiting like Idiots.
               And the Worst Thing is Even they know that WE WILL WAIT FOR THEM, that we cannot walk away from them. So just in case not to lose one of their hardcore Admirers, once in a while They throw a Lovey Dovey msg in our chat box and Hail we read it with a Broad smile on our Face and Sparkle in our eyes as if we won The WAR OVER ALIENS.  Aren’t we really stupid to celebrate even a single msg once in a while for them?

                    They keep playing this Fun game with our feelings and enjoy it. And By this time, we too get used to all this but we keep quite.
WE BEAR THE PAIN OF HEART BREAK,
WE HIDE THOSE ABOUT TO BURST TEARS UNDER A BEAUTIFUL FAKE SMILE,
WE START ACTING VERY STRONG FOR THE WORLD IN THE DAY,
BUT REALITY STINGS OUR HEART AT NIGHT…
WHEN ALL THE MEMORIES KEEP FLASHING LIKE A SLOW MOTION VIDEO
THEN WE HIDE OURSELVES UNDER THE BLANKET AND WEEP SILENTLY.
                  The next day we wake up as if nothing happened last night and like the same stupid we are, we check our phone for a msg from them. Their name doesn’t pop up and with a hard sigh we just go ahead with their memories and start our day.
               WE LEARNT TO LIVE WITH THE PAIN,
               WE ADJUST OURSELVES TO THEIR MOOD SWINGS,
               WE KNOW THEY ARE TOYING US but still WE WAIT FOR THEM.
Because WE ARE COMFORTABLE WITH THAT PAIN NOW.
Because IT CAN’T HURT MORE THAN WHAT WE ARE GOING THROUGH.
Because that PERSON IS NOT AN OPTION FOR US.
THEY ARE THE CHOICE WE MADE FOR OURUSELVES.
THEIR MEMORIES ARE THE MOST CHERISHED TREASURE FOR US.
                         For our heart is not ready to accept the reality that, this relation leaves nothing but a HEART ACHE which our mind already accepted and is trying to stop us. But we DO NOT LISTEN. WE ALREADY LOST OUR SENSE.

 WE LOVE TO LIVE WITH THE PAIN and
WE WILL CONTINUE TO DO SO.

In this whole MELODRAMA, WE FORGET OUR WORTH.
WE FORGET THAT WE ARE PRECIOUS TO SOMEONE ELSE.
WE FORGET THAT WE MEAN THE WORLD TO SOMEONE.
           And most importantly, WE LOSE OURSELVES

P.S:- Penning down this story, like a Stupid as always I checked my phone.
        And guess what, the story continues as said above.