JOURNEY OF A WOMAN WHO IS STRONG , INDEPENDENT, SELF SUFFICIENT,JUST TURNED 36 & IS SINGLE

                                                          As I sit to write this , the clock shows 10.51 pm 28.12.2020. In another Hour , I will turn 36 and lots of emotions are running crazily in my heart and mind right now. Minutes before I sat to write "I WAS STARING AT MYSELF IN THE MIRROR AS THOSE TEARS STARTED ROLLING DOWN FROM EYES." I let them flow for a while and finally wiped them off when I thought of writing.

                                         Is it the FULL MOON or Is it the Age that's making me go all emotional? May be its THE BROKEN HEART SYNDROME. Or it can be the turmoil my soul went through.

                                         Since my childhood, my birthday is always a silent one as it comes during Christmas holidays. So i always made sure to make more noise on my day. That fact didn't change even now. A day before my birthday I get hyper and enjoy the birthday vibes. Today its Different though. 

                                         A slow motion of my 35 years of life is running in front of my eyes in 75 mm. One hell of a ride it is. And undoubtedly "ONE HELL OF A WOMAN I AM". 

                                        At this age of 35, a woman's life is complete when she has a family (well that's a society version). Her life is settled once she gets married and has kids. I believed that concept too. 

                                        For 25yrs, it was a pretty smooth run. A wonderful bed of roses laid for me by my parents & I danced the way i wanted. Tears were something that I never Knew. And then Just like every other girl gets settled in marriage, it happened to me too. LIFE IS SETTLED was what i thought. Little did I know MY LIFE WAS ABOUT TO BEGIN. 
A PRECIOUS DAUGHTER OF 25 yrs SUDDENLY TURNED INTO A SLAVE TO SOMEONE Else FAMILY. 
A TREASURED SISTER BECAME A PUNCHING BAG FOR ANOTHER MAN.
Oh, was this the HAPPY WEDDING LIFE that all those 1000+ guests were blessing me on my marriage for?
A living hell of 8 months was the "UNTIL DEATH DO US APART" promise on the altar lasted for.
Burns on the skin to Bruises on the Body
Blood oozing from the Chin to Losing Baby to his Anger
He choosing another woman to His Parents supporting his wrongs
So this was the SETTLEMENT OF LIFE. 
UNTIL ONE DAY I CHOOSE TO END IT ALL....ONCE N FOREVER

                                         It wasn't easy again. A battle in court for 6 long years to prove MY CHARACTER before i Sign those DIVORCE PAPERS. 6 yrs of Precious life spent in those narrow court halls where every mans eyes have nothing but lust when I pass through them. All those times I endured the pain under that clenched teeth. JUST TO PROVE MY CHARACTER TO THE WORLD. Finally the day I WAS DECLARED A WINNER & WE SIGNED THOSE PAPERS  I realized NO RINGS CAN BIND TWO HEARTS FOREVER. No matter how many promises you make at the altar.
CHAPTER CLOSED.

                                              This journey is what shaped me. It made me realize "EVERY GIRLS DREAM OF HAVING A HAPPY MARRIED LIFE DOESN'T COME TRUE. Its absolutely ok to come out of a BROKEN MARRIAGE ALIVE THAN CHOOSING TO DIE." 
REAL STRUGGLE STARTED WHEN I HAD TO FACE THE REAL WORLD.
A SINGLE WOMAN is always treated as A CHANCE . Yeah why not, after all who cares about love.
TO SURVIVE IN THIS WORLD OF WOLVES, I TOOK THE HARD WAY .
INSTEAD OF HIDING BEHIND MY PARENTS BACK
INSTEAD OF SEARCHING FOR ANOTHER MALE SHOULDER TO LEAN ON
I BECAME STRONG....STRONG ENOUGH TO SUPPORT MYSELF.
INDEPENDENT ENOUGH TO PAY MY OWN BILLS.
SELF SUFFICIENT TO TRAVEL THE WORLD.

I SHAPED MYSELF INTO A STRONGEST WOMAN and BUILT A WALL AROUND MY HEART SO THAT NO ONE CAN EVER BREAK ME AGAIN.
I EARNED A NAME FOR MYSELF IN THE MALE DOMINATED FIELD.
I MADE SURE PEOPLE KNOW ME BY MY WORK and NOT BY MY LOOKS.
I WORKED HARD and REACHED A STAGE WHERE WHEN I WALK INTO A ROOM , PEOPLE RECOGNIZE ME FOR MY SPEECHES.

IT TOOK ME 35yrs OF BLOOD,SWEAT & TEARS to BE THE UNTAMED VERSION.
Crossed my path with someone who tried to break the wall around my heart but unfortunately it was the wrong timing. Or may be we Didn't want to make it happen.
It was never a HAPPY ENDING as I DON'T BELIEVE IN HAPPY ENDINGS.
Falling in love is easy where as Building a future is difficult I guess. No hard feelings though. Wishing him the best.

I BELIEVE IN BUILDING MY OWN SELF
I TRUST IN PATTING MY BACK WHEN I AM HAPPY OR SAD
I LOVE TO CELEBRATE MY EVERY SUCCESS N EVERY FAILURE
I FELL IN LOVE.....
I FELL IN LOVE WITH MY OWN SELF.
For am very proud of the way I ROSE LIKE A PHOENIX FROM THE ASHES OF LIFE. 

                                          

Now my Birthday is not silent anymore. FOR THERE ARE MANY LOVED ONES WHO ARE CELEBRATING MY DAY.

Am writing this today , as i want people to CELEBRATE MY LIFE TOO.
LIFE IS NEVER EASY. BUT WHO CARES WHEN I AM STRONG.

IT TOOK ME 35 yrs to REALIZE THAT MY LIFE IS WORTH CELEBRATING, NOT JUST MY BIRTH.
FROM A WORTHLESS PERSON TO MY EX
TO BUILDING MY OWN BUSINESS .... MY LIFE IS WHAT I MADE IT TO BE.

A HUMBLE YET PROUD 35yrs old SINGLE,STRONG,INDEPENDENT & SELF SUFFICIENT WOMAN I AM.

CHEERS TO LIFE.

MERMAID, THE PRINCE & MERMAIDS SECRET WISH

                                                             The PRINCE loved The MERMAID. But he understood that The CHAIN was calm when he held the PRINCESS hand.

                                            The PRINCESS was SMITTEN by the PRINCE. 
She understood the PRINCE heart but she held his Hand Tight.

                                            The MERMAID was watching from Afar. She knew the PRINCE has to make a CHOICE. She silently HOPED & PRAYED for his happiness in whatever choice he makes.

                                             The Tides became Favourable for the Journey & The ROYAL CRUISE started adjusting its SAILS for DEPARTURE.

                                                             The PRINCE looked at the MERMAID. Her eyes were so powerful. He could listen to her VOICE through them.

"JUST ONE DAY ...... JUST ONE CHANCE.
IF WE CAN HOLD HANDS AGAIN
IF WE CAN HUG EACH OTHER AGAIN
IF WE CAN SWIM TOGETHER AGAIN
IF WE CAN SPEND TIME AGAIN.........

FOR JUST ONE DAY ..... IF YOU CAN CHOOSE ME

FOR ONE LAST TIME ... IF YOU CAN GIVE ME YOUR TIME...

MAY BE WE WILL BE US !!!

"JUST ONE LAST CHANCE  "    -   Her words were so LOUD & CLEAR to him in that SILENT NIGHT. 

                                           Suddenly The PRINCESS whispered to the PRINCE "GET ON THE CRUISE HOLDING MY HAND. YOU CAN STILL LOOK AT THE MERMAID ALL YOU WANT."

The PRINCE heard both of them. 

And Now it will be HIS CHOICE.

MERMAID, THE PRINCE & THE LAST HUG

                                          While the PRINCE saw the PRINCESS approach him & was busy looking at her, THE MERMAID felt all alone on the Shore.

Under that Dark Sky , Their eyes twinkled....... Differently

The eyes of PRINCE TWINKLED with HOPE.

The PRINCESS eyes SPARKLED with LOVE  &

The MERMAIDS eyes FLICKERED with tears. 

                                         As The PRINCESS held her hand out for the Prince, The tides around him became Calm & The Chain became less heavy.
So he for a moment wanted that peace.
He held his hand to take the Princess.
AND THE BEADED BRACELET FELL OFF.
The PRINCE saw it too, but he felt the bracelet might grow heavy on him just like the Chain.
SO HE LET IT GO.

                                       MERMAID who was watching all this from the shore, immediately jumped into the water & found the BRACELET. PRINCESS SAW ALL THIS, yet she loved the PRINCE so much to leave him. 
The Confused PRINCE couldn't decide whom to choose. He was just happy that the HEAVY CHAIN didn't bother him when he was with the PRINCESS.

                                     The MERMAID who looked into his EYES & READ HIS HEART asked him for "ONE LAST HUG."
Reluctantly, The PRINCE HUGGED HER.

With her MERMAID POWERS, in that hug MERMAID EXCHANGED HER SOUL WITH THE PRINCE & WRAPPED THE BRACELET AGAIN ON HIM.
As the PRINCESS WATCHED, the MERMAID kissed the PRINCE on his FOREHEAD & BID HIM GOOD BYE.

                                    THE SOUL EXCHANGE MADE THE MERMAID GIVE ALL HER HAPPINESS TO THE PRINCE & SHE TOOK ALL HIS SADNESS & LONELINESS WITH HER.

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FULL MOON STARTED WEARING OFF !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

P.S:- All image credits to Anime & image owners.

MERMAID , THE PRINCE & ONE LAST CHANCE

                                        It was a FULL MOON NIGHT. The tides were High & PRINCE was Restless.
He then realized the MERMAID was not with him to calm the misery.
He saw the MERMAID nursing her wounds. PRINCE wanted to fix her heart. So he waved at her & asked her for ONE LAST CHANCE. 

                                       He knew she was his STRENGTH. He wanted to break the CHAIN on his own.
ALL HE ASKED HER WAS TO STAND NEXT TO HIM.
MERMAID who couldn't support him first, decided to be with him in this STRUGGLE.

SHE SWAM BACK TO HIS OCEAN OF MISERIES.

ONE LAST CHANCE FOR BOTH OF THEM.

                                       As she came near, THE PRINCE TRIED HUGGING THE MERMAID.
But,High tides & His Chain couldn't let him near her.
The PRINCE tried, tried & tried. 
MERMAID calmed the tides using her powers but the CHAIN didn't fall off.

              The helpless PRINCE gave up the fight & pushed the MERMAID away. He knew staying there will drown both of them.
                   THE PRINCE WANTED TO SAVE THE MERMAID.

                              History says, MERMAIDS TEARS TURN INTO PEARLS.
THE MERMAID CRIED ALL HER HEART OUT & WITH THE TEARS THAT TURNED INTO PEARLS ......
She BEADED A BRACELET & WRAPPED ON HIS WRIST. She wore one too.
Thats a reminder of WHAT THEY FOUGHT FOR.

PRINCE PUSHED HER OFF WITH FORCE & MERMAID LEFT HIM WITH A SMILE.

FULL MOON WILL WEAR OFF SOON....TILL THEN SHE WILL WAIT BY THE SHORE.

Meanwhile from far away,
A ROYAL CRUISE STARTED COMING TOWARDS THE PRINCE &
A PRINCESS HELD HER HAND OUT.

MERMAID & THE PRINCE - 1

                                             As The Night became Dark & the Sky turned black , A MERMAID Is washed off the shore by the strong waves. The MERMAID Is LONELY, LOST and IN HER OWN LITTLE WORLD wondering why her world was so Dark. She sat on a ROCK on the SHORE trying to find answers but she knew that " SHE DOESN'T FEAR THE DEPTHS BUT HAS A GREAT FEAR OF SHALLOW LIVING." Because She is a MERMAID.

                                   As she is Lost in her thoughts, from far away she heard loud screams for help. She Saw A PRINCE drowning in his own ocean of miseries. He is frantically struggling to swim & dare the waves to breathe. His Scream for help made the MERMAID jump into his OCEAN immediately.

          With tears in his eyes,

THE PRINCE hugged the MERMAID so tight and held her hand. He desperately wanted a SAVIOUR. She calmed him down and started swimming with him in his OCEAN to tell him that he is not ALONE. 

No matter how much they tried, they couldn't move an inch. Then she saw, THE PRINCE was chained with his emotions. THE CHAINS are so deep rooted & rusted that they are so heavy for the mermaid too. 

THE MERMAID tried, tried & tried to cut the shackles. But THE PRINCE is afraid that the CHAIN might get hurt. He didn't notice that MERMAIDS body is full of bruises & Her heart is bleeding. He is busy checking the CHAIN that is holding him as a HOSTAGE. THE MERMAID couldn't drown with him as she has to save him again if he wants. So she silently swam back to the shore.

THE PRINCE still didn't notice she left.
THE MERMAID still didn't leave the Shore.
ALAS......
If THE PRINCE needs RESCUE
THE MERMAID will be his SAVIOUR again.
Till then ,
MERMAID will watch over him from afar so that THE PRINCE won't be lonely.