MERMAID - HER SOLITUDE & HER RISE

 

Once so Cheerful MERMAID now became LIFELESS.
A MERMAID who feared DARKNESS, now embraced DARKNESS.
She shut herself in the SHIP WRECKS & Built a wall with ROCKS that can't be broken from outside.
All she had was herself & the Memories she made in love.

She knew she was not strong anymore to take the pain that's drowning her heart in ocean of memories. 
Still she wanted to bear everything on her own.
She didn't want to step out into the ocean ever again as everything reminded her of the one who left her.

She choose to remain IN SOLITUDE WITH HERSELF.

The Ocean, The Moon, The Stars & Her friends in the Ocean who witnessed the story from the beginning were saddened by the way MERMAID was HEART BROKEN.
The OCEAN longed for her Presence
The MOON became GLOOMY as he couldn't SHINE on her
The STARS missed her BEAUTIFUL DANCE
And HER FRIENDS were WORRIED as MERMAID was afraid of DARKNESS & they never saw her HEART BROKEN.

Unbothered about the outside world,
MERMAID continued living as a LIFELESS DOLL. 
She lay awake staring into the Darkness wondering What went wrong.
As tears rolled from her eyes with the heaviness of memories, she cuddled herself to Sleep.
Suddenly NIGHTMARES would hit her out of blue & she would sit there in a corner with her head on her knees and cry her heart out.

All this while,
MERMAID KNEW HER HEART WAS BLEEDING SEVERELY.
The pain was unbearable as every inch of her SOUL was torn apart.
At times, She looked at the BRACELET and
Questioned GOD "Why he allowed such person into her life?"
At times,
She questioned herself, "If she really deserved the pain?"
She blamed herself, "For loving so unconditionally."
She pitied herself, "For allowing someone to treat her so unworthy."
She scolded herself, "For giving someone the right to break her heart."
She held herself responsible. "For letting someone play with her emotions and Toy her around."
She felt very sorry for her own self, "For letting her mind,soul,body and heart go through a breakdown because of someone."
Unable to bear the pain thats stabbing her Heart and Soul,
She fell on her knees, And Cried to God,
"SAVE ME FROM THE TRAUMA. I NEED YOUR HELP."

THEN HER INNER VOICE ASKED HER, 
"DARLING, WAS HE REALLY WORTHY OF YOU?
DO YOU DESERVE THE HEART WRENCHING TRAUMA FOR SOMEONE WHO LEFT YOU SUDDENLY?"
WAS HE MORE IMPORTANT THAN YOUR OWN SELF?

That Moment, MERMAID realized she loved him more than he deserved.
So he hurt her more than she deserved. 
Wiping her Tears, Like a determined soul she promised herself to rebuild her bruised and shattered life slowly.

Her friends in the Ocean, who were worried about her started knocking her door. She heard the knocks. But she was too weak to let anyone into her SOLITUDE. MERMAID knew she wanted her space to heal herself. She was Physically, Emotionally,Spiritually completely Damaged and broken.
"IN SOLITUDE SHE STARTED FIXING HERSELF, ONE BRUISE AT A TIME."
A small ray of light emerged from her soul and lit up the DARKNESS.
A SMILE ON HER FACE APPEARED AND IT BRIGHTENED HER HEART.

The friends who saw the light coming from the dark wall, were now relieved that MERMAID was alive. They too understood that she needed her space. But they wanted to be with her in her times of struggle. They loved MERMAID a lot.
All the friends decided to support her from a distance.
So they searched the Ocean and brought her favorite shells, fireflies, crystals and decorated the SHIP WRECK. 

Days passed and MERMAID HEALED HERSELF SLOWLY BUT VERY STRONGLY.
She finally decided that she can now live in the light again.
She was afraid the world outside might be Dark and thought that she might be alone.
As she made her decision,
SHE BROKE THE WALL WITH STRONG DETERMINATION.
When she stepped outside, it was a sight to BEHOLD.
HER SHIP WAS ALL DECKED UP WITH SHELLS, FIREFLIES & CRYSTALS.
HER FRIENDS WHO WERE WAITING THERE HUGGED HER & WELCOMED HER.
She then Understood, she was never alone all the while. She realized GOD ANSWERED HER PRAYERS THROUGH HER FRIENDS.
 
With happiness in her heart, She went up to the shore & sat on her rock. 
The MOON who finally saw her, started SHINING ON HER SO BRIGHTLY. Under that MOON LIGHT , THE MERMAID WAS GLOWING LIKE A PHOENIX WHO ROSE FROM HER ASHES.
The WAVES OF THE OCEAN SWAYED TO HER FAVORITE MUSIC.
The STARS TWINKLED & THE OCEAN WAS LIT UP AS DIAMOND CARPET.

MERMAID felt so peaceful Emotionally,Physically and Her heart,Mind,Soul & Body were swept with a sense of CONTENTMENT.
She can't erase the memories of her past, but she will no longer allow them to ruin her life.
She sat there in SOLITUDE and
She patted herself ," FOR NOT GIVING UP ON HERSELF IN ALL THOSE CHAOS"
She appreciated herself, "FOR BUILDING HERSELF FROM ALL THOSE SHATTERED PIECES."
She FELL IN LOVE WITH HERSELF ALL OVER AGAIN.

She looked up at the Sky & THANKED GOD FOR EVERYTHING.
And
SHE JUMPED INTO THE OCEAN & STARTED DANCING WITH HER FRIENDS TO THE MUSIC PLAYED BY THE WAVES UNDER THE MOONLIGHT.
HER LIFE STARTED AGAIN ....STRONGER & LOVELIER THAN EVER.

"BEHOLD HER, SINGLE IN THE FIELD,
YON SOLITARY HIGHLAND LASS."
                           - WILLIAM WORDSWORTH.

WHEN PRINCE LEFT HER HE THOUGHT
                        "THERE WILL BE A LOT OF FISH IN THE SEA."

BUT HEY
"SHE IS A MERMAID.
DAMN WONDERFUL CREATION WHO RULES THE WATER.
A MERMAID IS THE QUEEN OF OCEAN & RULER OF THE SEA". 


P.S:- THIS BLOG IS A DEDICATION TO MY VERY DEAR FRIENDS WHO UNDERSTOOD MY SOLITUDE AND YET NEVER LEFT ME ALONE IN DARKNESS.

Manjula, Himanshu, Shalini, Gomathi, Swetha,
Seshu, Harika, Pratyusha,Shilpa, Radhika.

You all became my strength in those weakest and darkest days and i can never say in words how much you guys mean to me. All i can say is I LOVE YOU guys.
 I LOVE MYSELF TOO. HAPPY VALENTINES DAY.

MERMAID, THE PRINCE & HIS DECISION

                                         

                               The Night was Gloomy & Dark. One Decision will change the lives of 3 hearts. The Stars above, the waves below and The Moon looked as if they were eagerly waiting for
A HAPPY ENDING.

The PRINCE heard the HEART OF THE MERMAID & WORDS OF THE PRINCESS.

While The Princess held her Hand out for THE PRINCE inviting him onto the ROYAL CRUISE,
MERMAID was very far from the Prince, Bruised & Broken sitting on a Rock on the shore.

                                                The once DROWNING PRINCE now looked like a PRINCE OF OCEAN. The waves didn’t bother him anymore nor the Chains troubled him.
Because he understood Either The PRINCESS will pull him onto CRUISE or MERMAID will save him again risking her life.
As the ROYAL CRUISE blew its horn , The PRINCE came to his senses. He saw MERMAID for one last time.And he made his DECISION.

                                     THE PRINCE CHOOSE THE PRINCESS.

                                 The PRINCE held the hand of the PRINCESS and she pulled him onto the ROYAL CRUISE. His CHAIN followed.
The PRINCE & PRINCESS celebrated their togetherness as they both Exchanged Rings to seal their Union. It was a great sight as the Stars above Twinkled & The waves swayed to the wind.

MERMAID who was watching all this, realized Her BRUISED BODY might heal very soon but Her BROKEN HEART won't..
The PRINCE turned around to wave His MERMAID one last GOOD BYE.

                                   MERMAID slowly gathered all her strength and started moving towards the waves.
MERMAID wanted to be all alone in her home, deep down somewhere in the OCEAN where no one can ever reach her again. THE OCEAN – HER HOME was calling her.  She waved at The PRINCE with a beautiful smile on her face & wished them a wonderful journey.

                                  For one last time, she looked up at the sky .
The MOON who shone so Brightly on her till now was no where to be found.
The DARK CLOUDS covered him completely.
MERMAID smiled at her own fate. Just before she dived into that DEEP OCEAN, she saw her reflection in the water.
She promised to herself  “I SHALL HEAL MYSELF & COME BACK MORE POWERFUL.”
With that Promise, she dived and left the Shore.

The PRINCE who thought the MERMAID left without waving at him, became very angry.  He vowed not to come back for her ever again. He was happy that HE CHOOSE THE PRINCESS and made a right choice.

ROYAL CRUISE set off on its JOURNEY with THE PRINCE & PRINCESS. The HAPPY COUPLE were busy building their own little kingdom of LOVE & LIFE.

The tides became very calm and The Shore turned Lifeless.
The Moon didn’t want to come out of the clouds
The Stars dim their light……
A BEAUTIFUL LOVE THEY WITNESSED ENDED WITHOUT A TRACE.
THE HAPPY ENDING THEY HOPED FOR BECAME A HEART BREAK.
They only want THEIR MERMAID to COME BACK and DANCE ON THE SHORES as she did before she met The PRINCE.
As a SHOOTING STAR fell, they silently prayed for The MERMAID.

Somewhere DEEP DOWN IN THE OCEAN,
MERMAID sat there in a STOIC state as all the memories started weighing heavily on her.
Slowly her HEART BECAME STONE COLD.
And she Built a WALL AROUND HER WITH SOLID ROCKS & SHIP WRECKS.
No one can ever Find her & No one can ever break her anymore.
She removed THE BRACELET - their LOVE MEMORY and kept it in a Box. It will remind her never to trust LOVE.

MERMAID will break her own wall & come out one day.

Until then……………
MAY BE WE SHOULD LEAVE HER ALONE TO HEAL HERSELF
MAY BE THE PRINCE WILL REGRET HIS DECISION & WILL COME BACK IN SEARCH OF HER
MAY BE SHE WILL FORGET THE PRINCE & WILL NEVER VISIT THE SHORE
Or
MAY BE SHE WILL BE STRONG ENOUGH & RULE THE OCEAN .

The story just began.

JOURNEY OF A WOMAN WHO IS STRONG , INDEPENDENT, SELF SUFFICIENT,JUST TURNED 36 & IS SINGLE

                                                          As I sit to write this , the clock shows 10.51 pm 28.12.2020. In another Hour , I will turn 36 and lots of emotions are running crazily in my heart and mind right now. Minutes before I sat to write "I WAS STARING AT MYSELF IN THE MIRROR AS THOSE TEARS STARTED ROLLING DOWN FROM EYES." I let them flow for a while and finally wiped them off when I thought of writing.

                                         Is it the FULL MOON or Is it the Age that's making me go all emotional? May be its THE BROKEN HEART SYNDROME. Or it can be the turmoil my soul went through.

                                         Since my childhood, my birthday is always a silent one as it comes during Christmas holidays. So i always made sure to make more noise on my day. That fact didn't change even now. A day before my birthday I get hyper and enjoy the birthday vibes. Today its Different though. 

                                         A slow motion of my 35 years of life is running in front of my eyes in 75 mm. One hell of a ride it is. And undoubtedly "ONE HELL OF A WOMAN I AM". 

                                        At this age of 35, a woman's life is complete when she has a family (well that's a society version). Her life is settled once she gets married and has kids. I believed that concept too. 

                                        For 25yrs, it was a pretty smooth run. A wonderful bed of roses laid for me by my parents & I danced the way i wanted. Tears were something that I never Knew. And then Just like every other girl gets settled in marriage, it happened to me too. LIFE IS SETTLED was what i thought. Little did I know MY LIFE WAS ABOUT TO BEGIN. 
A PRECIOUS DAUGHTER OF 25 yrs SUDDENLY TURNED INTO A SLAVE TO SOMEONE Else FAMILY. 
A TREASURED SISTER BECAME A PUNCHING BAG FOR ANOTHER MAN.
Oh, was this the HAPPY WEDDING LIFE that all those 1000+ guests were blessing me on my marriage for?
A living hell of 8 months was the "UNTIL DEATH DO US APART" promise on the altar lasted for.
Burns on the skin to Bruises on the Body
Blood oozing from the Chin to Losing Baby to his Anger
He choosing another woman to His Parents supporting his wrongs
So this was the SETTLEMENT OF LIFE. 
UNTIL ONE DAY I CHOOSE TO END IT ALL....ONCE N FOREVER

                                         It wasn't easy again. A battle in court for 6 long years to prove MY CHARACTER before i Sign those DIVORCE PAPERS. 6 yrs of Precious life spent in those narrow court halls where every mans eyes have nothing but lust when I pass through them. All those times I endured the pain under that clenched teeth. JUST TO PROVE MY CHARACTER TO THE WORLD. Finally the day I WAS DECLARED A WINNER & WE SIGNED THOSE PAPERS  I realized NO RINGS CAN BIND TWO HEARTS FOREVER. No matter how many promises you make at the altar.
CHAPTER CLOSED.

                                              This journey is what shaped me. It made me realize "EVERY GIRLS DREAM OF HAVING A HAPPY MARRIED LIFE DOESN'T COME TRUE. Its absolutely ok to come out of a BROKEN MARRIAGE ALIVE THAN CHOOSING TO DIE." 
REAL STRUGGLE STARTED WHEN I HAD TO FACE THE REAL WORLD.
A SINGLE WOMAN is always treated as A CHANCE . Yeah why not, after all who cares about love.
TO SURVIVE IN THIS WORLD OF WOLVES, I TOOK THE HARD WAY .
INSTEAD OF HIDING BEHIND MY PARENTS BACK
INSTEAD OF SEARCHING FOR ANOTHER MALE SHOULDER TO LEAN ON
I BECAME STRONG....STRONG ENOUGH TO SUPPORT MYSELF.
INDEPENDENT ENOUGH TO PAY MY OWN BILLS.
SELF SUFFICIENT TO TRAVEL THE WORLD.

I SHAPED MYSELF INTO A STRONGEST WOMAN and BUILT A WALL AROUND MY HEART SO THAT NO ONE CAN EVER BREAK ME AGAIN.
I EARNED A NAME FOR MYSELF IN THE MALE DOMINATED FIELD.
I MADE SURE PEOPLE KNOW ME BY MY WORK and NOT BY MY LOOKS.
I WORKED HARD and REACHED A STAGE WHERE WHEN I WALK INTO A ROOM , PEOPLE RECOGNIZE ME FOR MY SPEECHES.

IT TOOK ME 35yrs OF BLOOD,SWEAT & TEARS to BE THE UNTAMED VERSION.
Crossed my path with someone who tried to break the wall around my heart but unfortunately it was the wrong timing. Or may be we Didn't want to make it happen.
It was never a HAPPY ENDING as I DON'T BELIEVE IN HAPPY ENDINGS.
Falling in love is easy where as Building a future is difficult I guess. No hard feelings though. Wishing him the best.

I BELIEVE IN BUILDING MY OWN SELF
I TRUST IN PATTING MY BACK WHEN I AM HAPPY OR SAD
I LOVE TO CELEBRATE MY EVERY SUCCESS N EVERY FAILURE
I FELL IN LOVE.....
I FELL IN LOVE WITH MY OWN SELF.
For am very proud of the way I ROSE LIKE A PHOENIX FROM THE ASHES OF LIFE. 

                                          

Now my Birthday is not silent anymore. FOR THERE ARE MANY LOVED ONES WHO ARE CELEBRATING MY DAY.

Am writing this today , as i want people to CELEBRATE MY LIFE TOO.
LIFE IS NEVER EASY. BUT WHO CARES WHEN I AM STRONG.

IT TOOK ME 35 yrs to REALIZE THAT MY LIFE IS WORTH CELEBRATING, NOT JUST MY BIRTH.
FROM A WORTHLESS PERSON TO MY EX
TO BUILDING MY OWN BUSINESS .... MY LIFE IS WHAT I MADE IT TO BE.

A HUMBLE YET PROUD 35yrs old SINGLE,STRONG,INDEPENDENT & SELF SUFFICIENT WOMAN I AM.

CHEERS TO LIFE.

MERMAID, THE PRINCE & MERMAIDS SECRET WISH

                                                             The PRINCE loved The MERMAID. But he understood that The CHAIN was calm when he held the PRINCESS hand.

                                            The PRINCESS was SMITTEN by the PRINCE. 
She understood the PRINCE heart but she held his Hand Tight.

                                            The MERMAID was watching from Afar. She knew the PRINCE has to make a CHOICE. She silently HOPED & PRAYED for his happiness in whatever choice he makes.

                                             The Tides became Favourable for the Journey & The ROYAL CRUISE started adjusting its SAILS for DEPARTURE.

                                                             The PRINCE looked at the MERMAID. Her eyes were so powerful. He could listen to her VOICE through them.

"JUST ONE DAY ...... JUST ONE CHANCE.
IF WE CAN HOLD HANDS AGAIN
IF WE CAN HUG EACH OTHER AGAIN
IF WE CAN SWIM TOGETHER AGAIN
IF WE CAN SPEND TIME AGAIN.........

FOR JUST ONE DAY ..... IF YOU CAN CHOOSE ME

FOR ONE LAST TIME ... IF YOU CAN GIVE ME YOUR TIME...

MAY BE WE WILL BE US !!!

"JUST ONE LAST CHANCE  "    -   Her words were so LOUD & CLEAR to him in that SILENT NIGHT. 

                                           Suddenly The PRINCESS whispered to the PRINCE "GET ON THE CRUISE HOLDING MY HAND. YOU CAN STILL LOOK AT THE MERMAID ALL YOU WANT."

The PRINCE heard both of them. 

And Now it will be HIS CHOICE.

MERMAID, THE PRINCE & THE LAST HUG

                                          While the PRINCE saw the PRINCESS approach him & was busy looking at her, THE MERMAID felt all alone on the Shore.

Under that Dark Sky , Their eyes twinkled....... Differently

The eyes of PRINCE TWINKLED with HOPE.

The PRINCESS eyes SPARKLED with LOVE  &

The MERMAIDS eyes FLICKERED with tears. 

                                         As The PRINCESS held her hand out for the Prince, The tides around him became Calm & The Chain became less heavy.
So he for a moment wanted that peace.
He held his hand to take the Princess.
AND THE BEADED BRACELET FELL OFF.
The PRINCE saw it too, but he felt the bracelet might grow heavy on him just like the Chain.
SO HE LET IT GO.

                                       MERMAID who was watching all this from the shore, immediately jumped into the water & found the BRACELET. PRINCESS SAW ALL THIS, yet she loved the PRINCE so much to leave him. 
The Confused PRINCE couldn't decide whom to choose. He was just happy that the HEAVY CHAIN didn't bother him when he was with the PRINCESS.

                                     The MERMAID who looked into his EYES & READ HIS HEART asked him for "ONE LAST HUG."
Reluctantly, The PRINCE HUGGED HER.

With her MERMAID POWERS, in that hug MERMAID EXCHANGED HER SOUL WITH THE PRINCE & WRAPPED THE BRACELET AGAIN ON HIM.
As the PRINCESS WATCHED, the MERMAID kissed the PRINCE on his FOREHEAD & BID HIM GOOD BYE.

                                    THE SOUL EXCHANGE MADE THE MERMAID GIVE ALL HER HAPPINESS TO THE PRINCE & SHE TOOK ALL HIS SADNESS & LONELINESS WITH HER.

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FULL MOON STARTED WEARING OFF !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

P.S:- All image credits to Anime & image owners.

MERMAID , THE PRINCE & ONE LAST CHANCE

                                        It was a FULL MOON NIGHT. The tides were High & PRINCE was Restless.
He then realized the MERMAID was not with him to calm the misery.
He saw the MERMAID nursing her wounds. PRINCE wanted to fix her heart. So he waved at her & asked her for ONE LAST CHANCE. 

                                       He knew she was his STRENGTH. He wanted to break the CHAIN on his own.
ALL HE ASKED HER WAS TO STAND NEXT TO HIM.
MERMAID who couldn't support him first, decided to be with him in this STRUGGLE.

SHE SWAM BACK TO HIS OCEAN OF MISERIES.

ONE LAST CHANCE FOR BOTH OF THEM.

                                       As she came near, THE PRINCE TRIED HUGGING THE MERMAID.
But,High tides & His Chain couldn't let him near her.
The PRINCE tried, tried & tried. 
MERMAID calmed the tides using her powers but the CHAIN didn't fall off.

              The helpless PRINCE gave up the fight & pushed the MERMAID away. He knew staying there will drown both of them.
                   THE PRINCE WANTED TO SAVE THE MERMAID.

                              History says, MERMAIDS TEARS TURN INTO PEARLS.
THE MERMAID CRIED ALL HER HEART OUT & WITH THE TEARS THAT TURNED INTO PEARLS ......
She BEADED A BRACELET & WRAPPED ON HIS WRIST. She wore one too.
Thats a reminder of WHAT THEY FOUGHT FOR.

PRINCE PUSHED HER OFF WITH FORCE & MERMAID LEFT HIM WITH A SMILE.

FULL MOON WILL WEAR OFF SOON....TILL THEN SHE WILL WAIT BY THE SHORE.

Meanwhile from far away,
A ROYAL CRUISE STARTED COMING TOWARDS THE PRINCE &
A PRINCESS HELD HER HAND OUT.

MERMAID & THE PRINCE - 1

                                             As The Night became Dark & the Sky turned black , A MERMAID Is washed off the shore by the strong waves. The MERMAID Is LONELY, LOST and IN HER OWN LITTLE WORLD wondering why her world was so Dark. She sat on a ROCK on the SHORE trying to find answers but she knew that " SHE DOESN'T FEAR THE DEPTHS BUT HAS A GREAT FEAR OF SHALLOW LIVING." Because She is a MERMAID.

                                   As she is Lost in her thoughts, from far away she heard loud screams for help. She Saw A PRINCE drowning in his own ocean of miseries. He is frantically struggling to swim & dare the waves to breathe. His Scream for help made the MERMAID jump into his OCEAN immediately.

          With tears in his eyes,

THE PRINCE hugged the MERMAID so tight and held her hand. He desperately wanted a SAVIOUR. She calmed him down and started swimming with him in his OCEAN to tell him that he is not ALONE. 

No matter how much they tried, they couldn't move an inch. Then she saw, THE PRINCE was chained with his emotions. THE CHAINS are so deep rooted & rusted that they are so heavy for the mermaid too. 

THE MERMAID tried, tried & tried to cut the shackles. But THE PRINCE is afraid that the CHAIN might get hurt. He didn't notice that MERMAIDS body is full of bruises & Her heart is bleeding. He is busy checking the CHAIN that is holding him as a HOSTAGE. THE MERMAID couldn't drown with him as she has to save him again if he wants. So she silently swam back to the shore.

THE PRINCE still didn't notice she left.
THE MERMAID still didn't leave the Shore.
ALAS......
If THE PRINCE needs RESCUE
THE MERMAID will be his SAVIOUR again.
Till then ,
MERMAID will watch over him from afar so that THE PRINCE won't be lonely.